My frustration ...AGAIN!

Well, I would say this blog is more to release my frustration towards my work life. Which I would say, from now on, what I will write is more about my work life, which is not so good, but good, not so bad, but bad, somehow I don't have exact/precise word for that...how pathetic it is...

Many people asked me, why must I work, by having 5 kids to take care, it' s not easy....YES, it's not easy, but I have my own reason...

This is some of it...I don't expect people to read my blog...just for my satisfaction

1) Three years when I was in Japan, it was the most unproductive years for me, though I still can visit only a few places in Japan since I have been pregnant for almost every year...Goshh when I think about it...I can't believe myself...tapi Alhamdulillah tu la rezeki yg diberi Allah kepada kami. Bukan merungut cuma sometimes even me can't believe myself that I have 5 children...well it's really not our plan...tp Maha Allah mengetahui segalanya yg terbaik untuk kami. Masih lagi teringat-ingat semasa melahirkan Adam, semasa dalam labour room, right after he came out, I told my husband, this will be the last one, and he angguk...kesian agaknya tgk aku tiap tahun beranak kot. Tapi Maha Allah menguji lagi tak sampai 6 bulan aku mengandung lagi...kali ni hubby kata..." Cuma Mama bayangkan orang yg nak anak x dpt anak, kite ni dah masuk 5, so jgn merungut...berterima kasih dan adalah tu rezeki lebih untuk kite semua"...
So aku terima dgn tabah sbb dah tahan ni dok mengandung tiap2 tahun...Dan sememang rezeki tu sentiasa murah. Sebenarnya setiap kali aku mengandung setiap kali tu la Hubby aku dinaikkan gred. Dan selepas aku bersalinkan Adam, terus ku dpt keje kat tempat lama...Dan sesungguhnya aku bersyukur kepadaNya. Cuma persoalannya setiap anugerah anak...disertakan dengan tanggungjawab, untuk memenuhi tanggungjawab tersebut tidak sesenang yg difikirkan. Tanpa kerjasama kedua belah pihak,tanggungjawab akan terlalai.
So dengan segala kesibukan bekerja dan menjaga anak2 adalah tugas yang tidak mudah. InsyaAllah sekiranya kite berserah dan bertawakal kepada Allah, semuanya akan menjadi senang
So bygkan how I was, not to say so depressed, tp I can't find satisfaction during those years
so dengan hanya bekerja sahaja aku boleh socialize myself...hehe...how selfish...to be continued...